Lately anxiety has stalked me and has threatened to overwhelm my sense of peace about life and that God is in control.
I honestly feel on the verge of panic attacks at least once a day.
It all started during a basketball game during Jimmy V week. The announcer, I think, said something like 1 out of 2 people get Cancer.
WHAT A STATISTIC!
SCARY!
Then my thoughts travel down that dark scary path:
What if Jake or I die of cancer? Or Both? Emma may not have both her parents growing up!
What if SHE gets cancer and I lose my baby girl?
My heart begins to race.
My lungs get tight, and I start to have a little trouble breathing.
I start to tremble.
To be honest, I try not to let myself go down this road, because it quickly leads to fear and anxiety.
Worry.
And ultimately not trusting in God.
When we love we become vulnerable, because those we love will get hurt. Emma will have hurtful experiences in school. She may be bullied. Someone will say something mean.
Hurt is inevitable in life.
Bad things happen, they do.
How we handle the bad things is what makes the difference. When I begin walking down that scary road, God gently reminds me of my most favorite phrase in the Bible: I AM.
He is. He is in control. Few things are in my control, one of those being my reaction to my fears and worries.
I stop myself. Take a deep breath, and turn to God.
He is my Rock, He is my salvation. He is my deliverer, my comforter...I could go on.
BUT
He is not just that for ME.
He is Emma's Rock, Emma's comforter, and Emma's ...
He is Jake's ...
He loves us, He wants the best for us. The level of love I feel for my husband and daughter, and the rest of the people I love so much is just a small fraction of the amount of love that He has for us.
So, as you begin to walk down that road, and let worry overtake you. Remember that He is "I AM", everything you need.
Remember Matthew 6:25-34 where Jesus exhorts us not to worry, because He is in control, and He will take care of us. It may not look like we think it should or want it to.
But He will.
I honestly feel on the verge of panic attacks at least once a day.
It all started during a basketball game during Jimmy V week. The announcer, I think, said something like 1 out of 2 people get Cancer.
WHAT A STATISTIC!
SCARY!
Then my thoughts travel down that dark scary path:
What if Jake or I die of cancer? Or Both? Emma may not have both her parents growing up!
What if SHE gets cancer and I lose my baby girl?
My heart begins to race.
My lungs get tight, and I start to have a little trouble breathing.
I start to tremble.
To be honest, I try not to let myself go down this road, because it quickly leads to fear and anxiety.
Worry.
And ultimately not trusting in God.
When we love we become vulnerable, because those we love will get hurt. Emma will have hurtful experiences in school. She may be bullied. Someone will say something mean.
Hurt is inevitable in life.
Bad things happen, they do.
How we handle the bad things is what makes the difference. When I begin walking down that scary road, God gently reminds me of my most favorite phrase in the Bible: I AM.
He is. He is in control. Few things are in my control, one of those being my reaction to my fears and worries.
I stop myself. Take a deep breath, and turn to God.
He is my Rock, He is my salvation. He is my deliverer, my comforter...I could go on.
BUT
He is not just that for ME.
He is Emma's Rock, Emma's comforter, and Emma's ...
He is Jake's ...
He loves us, He wants the best for us. The level of love I feel for my husband and daughter, and the rest of the people I love so much is just a small fraction of the amount of love that He has for us.
So, as you begin to walk down that road, and let worry overtake you. Remember that He is "I AM", everything you need.
Remember Matthew 6:25-34 where Jesus exhorts us not to worry, because He is in control, and He will take care of us. It may not look like we think it should or want it to.
But He will.
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